Uncertain and unfulfilled

Life has been so busy throwing curve balls at me that it has left me uncertain as to my next moves. I don't know what more I can take physically or emotionally. To be honest, I never was much of a soft-ball player. :-P I have these wonderful ideas and I sometimes put them down 'on paper' so-to-speak only to not have time to fulfill them. In my last post, I mentioned my EMG. I still don't have the results of that, but I do still have lingering pain that intensifies at in opportune moments (is there ever an opportune time for pain?). I've been investigating brachial plexus injuries verses thoracic outlet syndrome. I've also found at least one article that indicates this type of issue is more common than anyone would admit to a breast cancer patient. In addition, on February 5, I was once again honored by a nation-wide article in the "Our Sunday Visitor". I am, as always, humbled by the reaction to my story by complete strangers. This article also includes several different medical professionals and facilities than previous articles. It warms my heart to know that articles like these are making more people (medical and lay) aware of the truth about breast cancer while pregnant. I sincerely hope that no other woman is ever told to 'theraputically' abort her child simply because of breast cancer. If she is, I hope she finds the courage and the fortitude to tell her doctors she will not end her unborn child's life while seeking treatment for her own cancer. Rachel and I also had our own photo shoot for the local 'Faces of Cancer' event. It was a frigid 22 degrees outside with a very brisk wind blowing. However, because of our love of horses and the uniqueness of our journey, the photographer felt that an outside shoot would portray us best. We all braved the cold to stand next to our Belgian draft horse friend, King, down the road from us. He was his typical friendly self and allowed us to pose in front of him for several shots, although he balked at clos-ups. By the time our hands were bright red from cold, the photographer, a breast cancer survivor herself, was satisfied with at least two shots. There will be an event at the unveiling of all the "Faces of Cancer" photos. Again, I hope this photo and my story that goes along with it will help another woman in a crisis of health make the decision that allows her AND her child to live!I have remained silent about the conflagration that is Susan G Komen and Planned Parenthood lately. I was pleased when my husband informed me of SGK's decision to not fund PP. However, even at first blush, I felt cautious. The ties that bind the two are quite strong. Now the decision has been reversed and some one was fired. I have been flamed on the SGk wall for applauding their initial decision. The worst part to me is the perpetuation of the falsehood that PP is the only way women can get healthcare. In the big scheme of things, PP is supposed to just be one option out of many. Therefore, as long as SGK continues to fund underprivileged women's breast exams, mammograms (both of which Cecile Richards of PP says they do NOT provide), and other breast health ideas; the middle-man doesn't matter. However, initially PP 'leaked' the SGK decision to change their grant award process (not affecting current grants), for their own purpose. Then their followers viciously struck out at SGK and the pro-life defenders regardless of the truth. They used hate-filled language to harrange SGK for 'caving to political pressure', but when SGK clarified or back-tracked, not once did those same people use those same terms, even though the situation is theoretically the same now as before. All-in-all, I would like to applaud SGK for trying to stand up for what is right, but I still do not endorse all the pink merchandise or donations to SGK. However, I do advocate praying for them as well as those at PP or mislead by the abortion industry. I'll leave with this adorable photo of Rachel... She woke from her nap and instead of coming into the living room she went into my bathroom shower stall and applied my face cream to herself... This is what pro-aborts don't see -- even in the face of disaster, she is my flesh and blood and has been precious to me since before I knew I was pregnant with her.