Monday, March 8, 2010
Not dead, but not out of the woods yet
Well, I'm not dead & neither is my tissue yet. I hate to whine, but it is terribly miserable to be useless/helpless. Its bad enough I can't pick up my baby, but I can't even open the tops to my pain pills 1/2 the time... Sigh... If I ever get breast cancer again I'm going to be *REALLY* mad!
As for the tissue, it seems to be holding its own. I don't know whether no change is a good thing or not. The base area seems to be healing well w/ some nice pink new skin showing up. The other part is yellow near the base and still black on the top. The nurse I spoke to today indicated that yellow is not dead. I interpret that as there is still hope. Of course, the biggest question is whether I get an infection or not. They've got me on antibiotics and I'm using antibiotic creams on all my 'wounds' - of which there are many.
As far as the helplessness goes I'm not doing much better. I try, but it seems like I always do something I'm not supposed to be doing. However, I pulled a no-no the other day & I can't tell, but something feels different on my left side. Sigh...
Rachel is growing like a weed & Simon is learning at the speed of light. Andrew is finally back at work after being gone for 4 weeks b/c of me. Hopefully in a few months this will all feel like its worth it & it will merely be a memory. Right now its my living day & nightmare.