Monday, March 1, 2010

Well...

I'm not feeling quite as sorry for myself right now. That's probably a good thing. I'm still pretty bummed out & really emotional though, plus still as helpless as ever, but I guess I'm just worn down from it.

Today was interesting to say the least. The kids haven't been sleeping well since we got back. Its probably b/c now our house is the unfamiliar instead of my mom's or Andrew's mom. Anyway, to help Andrew's mom stayed the night & most of the day today. She rocked both of the kids back to sleep in the middle of the night when they woke up. I'm glad she did it on the one hand, but on the other, had I been able, I'd have put them right back into bed after comforting them.

Simon is really having a hard time w/ authority right now. He pulls all kinds of tricks to squirm out of something he doesn't want to do... For instance, if he doesn't want to go to bed he'll grab his pants leg, pull it up, and say, "knee hurts." Some-how that's supposed to get your sympathy & prevent you from putting him to bed (at least for a while). If he knows he's skirting the line behavior-wise he'll look at you w/ those chocolate drop eyes & say "so tired." I think he's heard us excuse his behavior one too many times by saying he's tired. He has all kinds of tricks like that. He'll even use the 'so tired' one to get out of going to bed... He's obviously not thought that one all the way through.

Rachel is just a creature of habit at this point. Since my mom has been keeping her for quite a while (the whole 10 days we were gone & a few weeks before that), Rachel is used to mom's rhythms and such. Coming to our house is different from her 'usual' at this point. Since she's OCD like the rest of us, that makes her a bit unhappy. So we're working on transitioning back into our house (and arms) as soon as possible. Hopefully by the time I get my arms back (so to speak) the kiddos will be re-adjusted to me & Andrew instead of the grandparents.

So that's life right now. Hope everyone else is doing better than me! God bless & keep your chins up!

2 comments:

  1. Anonymous3/02/2010

    Hi Erika -

    I don't know what to say that would snap you out of the "pity party" except that "sometimes" those kind of parties are just what we need - for a little while anyway. You have been through a lot in the past several months and perhaps it's just catching up with you now.

    I remember when our son, Jordan, was a baby. He would switch parents a month at a time. For example, one month he wouldn't have anything to do with David (which was fine with me) but then the next month, he wouldn't have anything to do with me. (I HATED that)

    I also know it hurts to move your arms, etc but trust me, it's extremely important to follow the doctor's instructions. Otherwise, you could have complications later. (that, too, I know about but will not explain on this blog)

    Hang in there and please remember that you're in our thoughts and prayers daily.

    Anne

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  2. Erika...

    Mine went through the same thing after staying with my SIL while I was in the hospital (both times). They were "out of sorts" for several weeks. They'll snap back into their routine though. Kids are resilliant! Just get through these days the best you can. Even if that means giving in a little more than you normally would. Right now, the important thing is that EVERYBODY is getting the much needed sleep! You are one tough lady!

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My Chemo-Jane hair-style

My Chemo-Jane hair-style
I just had to have my mom buzz my hair because it was falling out so badly.

Pre-op wearing my hand-crocheted cap with my prayer shawl.

Pre-op wearing my hand-crocheted cap with my prayer shawl.
My loving husband is watching me distract myself with a game on his iPhone.

2 days after my BMX w/ 100ccs in the TEs

2 days after my BMX w/ 100ccs in the TEs
I even have a fashionable belt to hold up my drains.

3 weeks post-op w/ 400ccs in each TE

3 weeks post-op w/ 400ccs in each TE
The smile is fake because the TEs were irritating!